New Slate

I really don't know what to say right now, avid readers. A lot of crap has happened in the past weekend. It's been stressful here at Belmont. Sides have been chosen, whether people want to admit it or not. They chose to be comfortable instead of standing for what's right. I didn't think this stuff happened in COLLEGE. I was naive to think people were actually adults when they moved to college. I thought people wouldn't be petty anymore and wouldn't start stuff and hurt people unneccessarily. I didn't think I'd be sitting here, blogging, while asking God what I can do because my roommate and dear friend is so upset she's sick. And it's all thanks to people's actions.
I'm strong enough to handle it. Fine, turn your back. I've had it happen to me before and I have Jesus. He's one Friend who will never leave me. He's MY backbone, my Rock, my Strength. I have Him and I'm never letting go. I was raised to be strong. When I went through this kind of stuff I said 'screw you all. I don't need you.' and I took the high road and found others who loved me and encouraged me and were actually there for me when they knew I was being unjustly treated. They didn't turn their backs on me and think of themselves. No. They knew what was right and what was wrong and were strong enough to turn their backs on what they KNEW was wrong and supported the right.
I don't find that kind of attitude here. I thought people were different down here. I thought they were loyal, trustworthy. I'm contemplating cutting attachments.
So here's what I'm going to do: those who I deem okay (I may not be able to lean on them for loyalty), those who I've known since I got here will stay my 'friends'. I put friends in quotations because I haven't found true strong friendships yet. I didn't expect to, I just started. Back to what I was saying. Those who I just started to get to know, I have to leave. It's time for me to say goodbye. Those who know, know what and whom I'm talking about. If not, well, then we weren't that close so they don't need to worry. I'm gone. Consider me cut. I'm letting go.
Maybe there will be a time when we can all get together again, when we can actually put petty differences society instills in us aside and take the higher road and act the way Jesus wants us to act. Until then, I will go and I will search for true, Christian, loyal friends. The only place I can go to make these friends is where I found the man I am falling for.



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