Trust

Today's turning out to be a good day. I decided, though, to go away from my homework (easy as pie) and do some blogging a bit.
I was able to see and talk to my guy, finally!! After like 2 weeks of being back from Christmas I was able to talk to him. I'm so happy. He slept in, he said, and couldnt get to church because he was up late working on a science project. He went on to tell me about the molecular project he was working on and it was really interesting! As he spoke, his eyes sparkled and he had such a boyish grin slopped on his face, I know he loves what he does. It's a lot of work and dedication but he loves it. Now I don't encourage the missing of church, but God's doing something great in his life and as long as he has a few moments with God, i don't think it'll be counted against him lol. I'm happy about where this is going. A lot of my friends are pressuring me to tell him that i like him and each time I decline that idea. The reason is that I honestly think the only reason why he's swearing off girls is because he's been hurt by one or maybe even a few. Maybe he's wanting to get to where he wants to be first career-wise and then he'll look or maybe he just doesnt want to deal with women because they are a handful and an unnecessary stress. I know im bashing my own gender, but it's the truth! He's so laid back and focused, i really don't think he wants a girl who's wondering why he hasn't called her at exactly 9pm. Ya know what I mean?
Yes, I like him. I like him very much. He's what I've looked for and never have found in other guys. You can see why i'm hesitant about telling him how i feel.
First of all, I've only known him a few months and within that few months we haven't had heart to heart conversations yet. Why would I tell him I like him when I'm not sure he feels the same way? Also, like I said before, he's the first guy i've actually felt there's nothing else out there for me. There's just him. Because of this feeling, I've been praying about him, my feelings, the situation in which i was put in to God practically every night and whenever I think about him (which is often). I'm quite fine with where God's put me. I'm not rushing anything. I've learned that when I rush something, I get in trouble. Though my friends urge me to get on the ball and tell him already, my stomach isn't in knots and I don't feel conflict at all. I'm totally at peace with the situation. Sure there are times my mind thinks nothing is going to happen, but my heart and soul tell me otherwise.
I'm going to get more involved so he can start to see me for me. Right now, he's only seen me on a few occassions. He seems interested because he asked me to hang out with him and the others right before Christmas break. Ya'll remember that? Yea ya do.
I know my friends want me to be happy and want me to FINALLY find someone but if i'm the one in control, how far could i possibly go? Wouldn't it be so much better to allow God, the one who's in charge of everything and knows everything waaay before it happens, to control this situation and my life?
The latter seems pretty darn good to me.



So I wait.