Monday, February 16, 2009

WHY?!?!?!


Maybe someone can help me with this.
Today, martha and i went to the basketball game and we were happily watching the game and keeping an eye out on martha's crush. FYI: He's REALLY CUTE!
Well, a few minutes into the half-time show, my man comes in. He walks down to where we're sitting and i sing his name (it's a little thing we've started. every time we see each other, one of us either draws out the other's name or sing the other's name. i tend to sing his, he draws mine out haha). He looks down and says "hey, whats up?" so i turn back around. his tone was a bit curt. i don't react well with tones like that so i didn't really advance with a conversation. Besides, I thought he left.
Apparantely, he didnt. According to martha, he stood behind our row for a good 5 minutes, not scanning for his friends, just standing there watching the show. That would've been a perfect opportunity to talk to him, right? Right. WRONG! Because I didn't talk to him. Instead of turning around and talking to him, I turned the other way to strike up a fake conversation with one of my friends. After a bit, martha said he hesitated a bit and then he went over to where his friends were.
Why did I do that? Martha said I'm acting as if i'm not interested. I don't want to come off as too needy but then I don't want to come off as not interested because I am! I didn't see him all day and then when i do, i screw it up!
I'm hoping he's not thinking he shouldn't like me because he thinks i'm not interested. The entire time he was with his friends he would cheer for Belmont then he would look back and i would catch his eye. I can't stand myself! Everytime there's a perfect opportunity, i screw it up.
The one thing I'm scared of doing, I do. I pray to GOD my man's still interested, if he ever was. Hopefully, God will encourage him and explain the situation...


Did I truly mess up my chances with the man who I think is the one? Crap....

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