It Can't Be...Can It?

Recently, I've been thinking. I know sometimes thinking can be a bad thing because one can overthink or underthink. It all depends on the thoughts.

These thoughts are thoughts of the heart. Allow me to elaborate. You all know about this guy. No he's not a guy because the word guy sounds so disposable. No, he's a man. There, that's more concrete. So, this man, I've liked since I saw him. I met him at church. Good place to meet people at church, eh? Yeh. Since I was young I have liked guys but they haven't liked me back and, while liking them, I always felt as if there was something more, that there just HAD to be something more, even though I genuinely liked these guys. I liked them but there was no true attatchment, nothing telling me "Ah, Amanda, this is the one for you, lass." (don't know why I just did scottish but bear with me for it's early in the morning)

With the last crush crushing me, I went to off to college. I was certain I would find someone OUTSIDE of the quaint 24 acres I came to know and love and the little Christian school I was since I was 5 yrs old.

And, it seems I have.

There have been so many coincidential clues, so many things have happened and have been said and dreamed to make me think there's something to this man and me. There's been constant encouragement from my heart and mind when things seemed bleak. Every time another girl waltzed into the picture, like girls have in the past, I didn't feel hopeless like I usually would. My heart pulled me closer and though my mind was beginning to slip my heart whispered, "Hold on. Don't give up hope. You can't give up hope not now." Okay, so I've held on and in that amount of time, I've seen so many clues pointing me in the direction of him it's hard to deny it.

When does something become something you can believe in with your whole heart? When doesn't it become a question anymore?

I want to be certain about him. In my heart I feel as though I've found who I've been waiting for. He's the one I've been asking God for, the one who I've been praying to come into my life. Could it be he's finally arrived?

I truly hope so.

i'll be love's suicide

A cat landed on the wicked witch, not a house!

Breaking News: Alan put a number lock on his phone and doesn't know the password. LOVELY.

Speaking of phones: It's definite we're going to get new phones tomorrow. I have my eye on the Env2 in maroon. I'm gonna get that one because it has a full keyboard and it's in MAROON! Why wouldn't I get that phone? haha

Also, I need some help. As some of you know, I have a critique blog that I use to critique movies, music, plays, books, WHATEVER. I need people to tell people I have this blog because I need readers and a large span of people to report to. Right now, it's not going too great. I would love it if people read my critique blog and then commented just to let me know they read it. Some feedback would be nice too. So please, tell your family, friends, colleagues, anyone with a computer!

That's all for now...ciao!

A Bit Better

Today is better than yesterday, thank God! Grandmom is out of the hospital and was commanded to rest. She was running around during Christmas, trying to get us gifts. This was AFTER she had been working a full day at the hospital as an accountant. She's 74 and she's out running like she's 30. Hey, if it keeps her young...but still, not at the expense of her health which is what she did.
Grandmom Poling is over and slept over last night. I went to church and mom has been cleaning and doing laundry. I'll go upstairs after I'm done writing and help her out.
Jill wants me to go to NYC with her tomorrow but I don't know if my parents will let me wander the streets of Times Square without them haha. I'm going on the 3rd to see Mary Poppins (SO EXCITED!) and the tree at Rockefeller Center so I don't know if I want to go.
I haven't gotten a phone yet, dear readers. My mom insists it's on her to-do list but I need a phone like NOW! Ah well. We'll try to go...maybe we'll go to the verizon store tonight or tomorrow. *Crossing fingers* I still don't know what kind of phone I want but I'm leaning toward the env2. I dunno...any suggestions?
Oh and I just found out my mom took days off from work so we can spend time together before I head back to Nashville on the 13th. She's so cool. Maybe we'll go shoppin'. YEAYA


Okay, enough rambling. I must go and help with something...

PHOTO ALBUM

Green Hills Mall





Opryland


Oyin's Christmas Party


Basement Decorations




Gingerbread Train making
CHRISTMAS!
The Sibs Dad & Mom


Well, those are the pics I have for the month of December. Christmas was spectacular! Oh, if you're wondering who the cat is, it's Starlight snuggled in one of Adam's new shirts haha