Unsettling...?

Back in August and again in November I think (?) I wrote about my "woman's intuition". It seems as though it's not panning out the way I predicted it to. It's not truly my intuition but it's my heart...either my heart or my head. A few more days and prayers will have to determine where this stuff is coming from.
I say 'stuff' because I really don't know if I should be calling these things feelings or thoughts since I don't know where they're coming from.
Let me explain...

A few nights ago I was praying after my devotions. I always pray before I go to bed. If I don't, I can't sleep until God and I have our conversation. It's just a certain routine we have going on; it works. ANYWAY, the Lord laid it on my heart to begin praying for my future husband. As I was praying for my family, He gave me the thought of praying for him. Hey, why not? In a few years, he WILL be my family, right? So I prayed for him: that God would encourage and strengthen him, that he would be the best Christian man he could be. I also prayed that God would let him know I'm thinking about and praying for him. That I love him.

As I was praying though, someone's face popped into my head and it wasn't the face I was expecting. It was a face from left field! I shrugged the face out of my head. Last night, I prayed a similar prayer for my future hub and the same face came into my mind! I finished my prayer and I was like "Goodness. Where'd he come from?!" It's just completely random. It's a face I know but the personality behind the face is foreign to me. I haven't gotten a chance to know him.

Oh my gosh! And then during the faith and development convo tonight, I was spacing out a bit. I leaned forward in my chair and rested my chin on my hand. Next thing I know, I can't hear the speaker and his face came into my mind and...get this. We were dating! Er...we were at least "together". Though I'm thinking we were dating. That just seems to fit.

But when I think about it, I just don't see us fitting. If there is an...us. I mean, I think he's cute but I would think it's completely and utterly random if we ever got together. It would definitely have to be a God thing. If God is trying to tell me something, I'm sure I'm ready. He wouldn't give me more than I could handle so I'm thinking maybe He knows I'm ready for something like this.

But it's just so RANDOM!

Ooh I caps locked and bold-faced it. SA-NAP!

I believe I'm freaking out. Yea, just a tad. My whole control thing is shattering. I thought the one guy was the one for me. Now this one comes out of nowhere.

Is that how it happens? Love?

If so, this is gonna be a bumpy ride, folks.



Hold on to your hats and I'll hold on to my heart.