Write, write, write along

Songs in iMind:

Iris--Goo Goo Dolls

In Christ Alone--Stuart Townsend

She Will Be Loved--Maroon 5

I finished and sent my article to NEED last night. Time to start another. I think I want to do one on one of the doctor's at the University Medical Center at Princeton (UMCP) in Jersey. One of the doctors went to teach some medical procedures in a foreign country. I want to say Cambodia or some other country in Africa. Anyway, I want to write about his experience, how the situation there is, and what people can do to help.

UMCP's maternity ward has begun collecting extra med supplies they don't need, blankets, and other stuff. The doctor has some great pictures, my mom said, too so maybe I'd be able to scan and incorporate those. I'm excited to start another.

Before I can do that, though, I need to start/finish my article for the Vision. I'm writing on the new cigarette rise in price. It's up another dollar. I have to get smokers and non-smokers' opinions on the price rise. Not too hard to do. All I have to do is go to the designated smoking areas around Belmont. There are people there taking a drag every day. The article's due next Thursday so I have to get some questions answered. I'm wondering if students are outraged or are they just going with the flow? They're going to Belmont so some must have daddy's or their own money.

I predict they're upset about it but they aren't ready to give up smoking. Unfortunately.

That's where I am work-wise.

Social-wise I'm a bit confused. Once again, I like two men at the same time. However, I feel like every time I want to see the other, I see Luke, who I feel as though is the one God has for me. It's strange. I prayed to God that if the other isn't anything, then take the feelings away. Take the flutters and the longing away and gear it towards Luke. After I prayed last night, I'm not as hyper-active romantically like I was last night. I'm chill for now but still miss the other. I suppose it's going to take time and interaction with Luke to take these feelings for the other away. Luke said he liked my haircut which was really sweet. At least he noticed.

I'm such a girl! haha Everyone tells me, "I don't know what you see in him." And I concur. I don't know what I see in him either. There's just something about him that's special. There's an innocence, a strength, a caring spirit that wants to love and be loved in return. I admire that. I also admire him for sticking to his studies and what God has planned for him instead of chasing girls and the things of this world. He's got a strong ego and I sit back and see my life and wonder, "Shouldn't I be the same? Shouldn't I be concerned with God's plan and not with getting a boyfriend right now?" It's easy to say I want to be totally wrapped up in work and writing and bettering my college career. It's hard to do.

The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. Yea, no kidding! A huge part of me is wanting to climb the ladder of success and get better at writing and see where God takes me. But then another part of me says "I don't want to climb alone." I have Jesus, yes. He's more than enough for me. But, like Adam and Eve, I need a partner. I get lonely sometimes, it's true. I'm getting to that age where I'm scared to start climbing up the rungs alone because I feel like I'll be too far up for a man to catch up. And then I get to the top of the ladder. Sure, I'd be successful and well-known but what's the point of success if you can't share it with anyone?

Just a thought.